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Friday, March 27, 2009'♥

I feel like 1 living corpse now
Moving around like dead
Brains stop functioning
Mouth stop eating
I only need my booze & fags to stay alive
Enough.

Had a lil talk with my mgr earlier, pertaining to ytd matter
She's out to play mind games with me again
N what can you expect from somebody whose mind is too dead to response
So, yeah. What can i say
She's right.. i wont wanna do things so mundane everyday
I dont have a choice either.
More things to learn = more work = more time taken in all areas = more brain cells killed = more energy = more STRESS
Im stressed enough
Im busy enough
I cant fucking hell cope during seasons at all already!
Days went by and unhappiness at work accumulated.
Higher & even higher.
I fucking wanna cry & scream my lungs out u know!!!

Things are really piling up from all areas.
SAVE ME!!!!!!!
My world became so upside down messed up with only shades of blacks & greys.
Stop rubbing salt onto my wounds.
Fucking stop it lah please!
I wont intrude your life anymore, so just let things end peacefully!
STOP HURTING ME FURTHER!
QUIT BEING SUCHA SADDIST!

I should be feeling relieve and glad that im gg to have my break soon.
I should be counting down for the getaway to Bintan in 2 weeks'.
I should but why.
Why am i feeling so suffocated & depressed.
Emotions battle.

2 more hours.
Im already going nuts with my cravings.
TONIGHT!

Anyway, i freaking love this song now.
Though only part of it describes everything, but still.
I heart it.


Zombie@3/27/2009 04:15:00 PM







.HERSELF.

__.x.__natalie__.x.__
__.x.__2nd June__.x.__
__.x.__facebook__.x.__

.HER.LOVES.

+ Peace
+ Freedom
+ Chilling
+ Drinking
+ Bitching
+ Surprises
+ Retail-Therapy

.HER.HATES.

+ Liars
+ Noise
+ Quarrels
+ Emptiness
+ Childish-ness
+ Emptiness
+ Restrictions
+ Feeling Lost
+ Feeling Trapped
+ Misunderstandings



.HER.WISHES.

+ Peace

+ Better Future

+ 48hrs Everyday

+ Overseas Trips

+ Knowing whats happiness


.HER.LINKS.

+ Debra
+ Liyi
+ Evelyn
+ Kriz
+ Jacinta
+ OngLing
+ Siu Ing
+ Wei Ye
+ Pamela
+ Debbie
+ Ummi
+ Ain
+ Yvonne

.THE.PAST.

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.HER.TUNE.


Shayne Ward - I Cry - Shayne Ward